To the Lighthouse (and back)

To the Lighthouse

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To The Lighthouse (and back) (10 minutes, silent), shown at Newlyn Gallery (2002), Wild Dog (2004)

With an atmosphere of apparent timelessness, the silence and slow motion of the camera (the author/subject/gaze) moves across the tiny figures at Godrevy, passing a young child, and settling on the image of Virginia Woolf’s lighthouse.

My work tries to deal with the unrepresentable; experimenting with various notions of presence and absence. Most of my work is based around the female body, and re-representation of the maternal. Referencing Woolf’s work, the repetition of the lighthouse image is one of ‘return’ –  to the past,  to the mother, and question the possibilities of her Subjectivity and entry into the symbolic.

Artist Mother, St Ives, 2001

In 2001 I clawed back a small space at the end of the garden of my tiny rented accommodation in St Ives to make a ‘room of my own’. The shed that I built was not a great studio. Small cold and lacking, its one great advantage was a fantastic view over to Godrevy and the lighthouse. It was mine, a place to escape childcare, housework, and domesticity – if even only for minutes at a time.  I began avidly re-reading the work of Virginia Woolf, and trying to find ways of expressing my personal struggle to have a creative life in the face of every obstacle.

To the lighthouse (and back), was a video work that came from long hours of reflecting on feminist discourse, performativity, and video art practice, using the site to create a timeless scene from imagination. I was not trying to illustrate Woolfe’s book, merely allude to sited domestic associations with place, and the lived experience of time and repetition, with its potential for change.

Is it working? installation questioned the considered value of womens’ work and their confidence in making their voices heard

Is it working? was an interim work documenting my shed (a room of my own), over the course of a couple of months. An installation made for an AAS, at the Custard Factory B’ham, 2003, the project score was: one photo each day, with diary entries and an accompanying video. The ironic title was a way of dealing with questions about value and women making art.   Every day the other male artists I knew in St Ives, went to their studios at Porthmeor and had the luxury of working all day, and painting. In contrast, I squeezed a few hours when I could around childcare, domestic duties and part-time work, Some days I only had time to take a photo. Could I claim that my work was important or even that it was art?

‘Is it working? also linked to other projects I was making which used notions of  synchronic time. I wrote of the project at the time:

‘Referencing Tching Tshieh style documentation, the question of the title enquires after this special space of the artist and the significance (or not) attached to it in society. It is also a personal space, from which you can see Virginia Woolf’s lighthouse. For women what does it mean to ‘have a room of one’s own’ and how can documentation of this fact, with the personal of the written diary entries extrapolate meaning over time?’